At 33 weeks pregnant, Amy is certain something bad will soon happen, it had too many times before. Deep down she fears it’s only a matter of time before the baby she’s carrying will die. Despite the fact that Amy had been repeatedly slapped in the face with multiple miscarriages, she still can’t seem to quiet that tiny voice in the back of her head that’s screaming at her to not give up hope.
Follow Amy’s true story as she stumbles through her journey with humor and warmth, all while dealing with the neuroses that came along with getting her hopes shattered time and time again. All she has to do is close her eyes and she’s lurched back to the memories of her losses; on the floor in her bathroom, in the hospital, and even at her place of work. No one knows what the internal mind of a woman who’d lost five babies and suffered so many let downs goes through.
Can Hope ever truly survive memories such as these?
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FROM CHAPTER 6
A few days after we scheduled our C-section, I eagerly awaited my very first baby shower. I decided to have a baby shower while still pregnant instead of waiting until after the baby was born. This was a big decision for me, mostly because having a baby shower during pregnancy would insinuate to the world that I assumed this baby would arrive safely. That was a big no-no for me. Sorry God, please don’t curse me. Conversely, I just couldn’t shake the dream of my baby shower occurring while I was still pregnant and rocking a nice big baby bump.
I anxiously got dressed for my shower and carefully selected a bold print maternity dress with cap-sleeves. I accentuated my round bump by adding a thick black leather belt notched tightly at the empire waste line. I looked good, I felt good, and I was ready. Before I got into my car I had a quick and private conversation with my baby-to-be.
“Okay sweetie, you behave in there, okay? Mommy is going to be very busy talking and opening gifts. We’re going to attempt to celebrate your impending arrival. So if you could just wiggle and kick and let me know you’re doing alright in there, it would really help Mommy feel better and enjoy her day, got it?”
I, of course, received no response. My baby was not the type to be manipulated or guilted into anything on command. I could already tell she’d be one of those kids that would march to the beat of her own drum. The prospect of my baby having her own little personality, already thrilled me.
Welcome all. Today I’m very lucky to be interviewing Amy Daws author of Chasing Hope: A mother’s story of loss, heartbreak and the miracle of hope. Hi Amy, thank you for agreeing to be interviewed.
Please tell us about yourself and your background?
Well, I’m currently a TV commercial producer for a local network affiliate station in South Dakota. So I write, shoot, and edit commercials for a living. Electronic Media and Journalism is what I went to school for, so I’m grateful to have a job in my industry.
Give us an insight into your main character. What does he/she do that is so special?
Well, since Chasing Hope is a memoir, the main character is me. I’m really self-deprecating through all my struggles and I think that resonates strongly with a lot of people. I’m really honest about everything in regards to infertility and recurrent pregnancy loss and how it feels to walk this earth with all that baggage. I even manage to take something very serious and sad and insert a humorous element in there because that’s how I am in real life.
What are you working on at the minute?
My first contemporary romance novel. I am in love!
What’s it about?
I’ve read hundreds and hundreds of contemporary romance novels and I’ve never really read a book that had an infertility storyline in it. Since I’m so experienced in that area due to my history, I thought it could make a really interesting storyline for a heroine of a romance novel to be struggling with something like this. I saw this as a way for me to interest my Chasing Hope readers, but also open up my demographic to romance lovers like me.
Which actor/actress would you like to see playing the lead character from your most recent book?
Oh goodness, I have to pick someone to play me? That’s hard. But I’ve always loved Amanda Pete. First of all, she’s beautiful, but she has a great way of looking natural on camera. Her face truly expresses every emotion and since my story is emotional, I think she would do an incredible job at it.
When did you decide to become a writer?
I’ve always dreamed of becoming a writer. When I was a kid, that was what I wanted to be. Because I was such a goof back then, I wanted to be a sitcom writer. That’s changed as my love for books has grown. I decided to finally sit down and try to start writing after my most recent miscarriage. I needed something else to focus on, something else to drive me. Even though I was writing about the very thing I was trying to get away from, it still felt extremely therapeutic.
What made you decide to sit down and actually start something?
After my most recent miscarriage. I thought to myself, holy crap. I’ve been through hell and back. How will I feel about all of this when I’m older and these are distant memories? Will I remember everything vividly? Will I care? I didn’t want to forget all the moments, even the bad ones…so that’s what made me actually get to work.
Where do your ideas come from?
From wherever! I stole my daughters Hello Kitty notebook one day because I realized that if I didn’t start writing these great ideas that popped into my head then I would forget them and lose them forever. So now I have a notebook with me everywhere.
What is your favorite quote?
I used it at the beginning of Chapter 1 in Chasing Hope:
“Every experience, no matter how bad it seems, holds within it a blessing of some kind. The goal is to find it.” -Buddha
Are there misconceptions that people have about your book?
I think people hear memoir and cringe. They think it’s going to be boring. My book does not read like a memoir. It’s intense and emotional and reads like a great novel, instead of a factual story.
Can you tell us about your upcoming book?
Yes, the working title is A Broken Us. It follows a girl named Finley who just breaks up with her amazing boyfriend, Brody, of five years because she finds out from her doctor that she can’t get pregnant. She is so incredibly distraught by this news that she leaves her boyfriend and flies overseas to London, England to live with her childhood best friend Leslie and her eccentric roommate Frank. Finley goes on a crazy emotional journey of coming to terms with her new infertile title but she’s living this lie that her boyfriend doesn’t even know about.
What was your favorite chapter (or part) to write and why?
I love writing a great kiss. An epic kiss. A passionate, earth-shattering kiss. Sigh. Romance.
About The Author
Amy Daws is local TV network affiliate commercial producer and lives in South Dakota with her husband, Kevin and their daughter, Lorelei. She graduated with honors from the University of Northern Iowa, despite fiercely executing her wild college-girl phase. Amy received her make-believe medical degree from the school of Google on infertility and miscarriage. On most nights, you can find Amy and her family dancing in their living room to Strawberry Shortcake's theme song or stuffing themselves inside children sized playhouses and then struggling to get back out because there is nothing they wouldn't do for their little miracle. She is passionate about sharing her story and connecting with other couples that have suffered infertility and loss and are in search of real-life understanding. Amy held on to hope in her journey because she knew the payoff of a miracle baby would be worth the wait.
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